Your own space.

Nobody is reading this blog.

Ghosts in the machine tell me there are comments, and there once was a blog here, but this is not the point.

I’ve mostly left Faceboo; that is to say, I have an account and I deactivate it every time I log out.  I jump on to message someone specific, like an old phone used to be.

I deactivate it because it gets to me. The nutty hustles.  The politics.  The “interesting ideas” that lead to nothing.

I can’t beat it back, I don’t have the strength to let it bounce off of me.

Here’s a space to think. Not to talk to others, but to work things out in my head, to meditate on whatever. It used to be – on livejournal – we’d write these pieces of thought. These 1200 word journal essays, part travelogue, part derrangement, part epiphany.

The promise of the Internet was we’d all have these outposts, our own spaces. The kind of conversations we wanted. We’d all get to do this, and it would be good.

Marketers ruin everything and they all made LiveJournal, turned that into Facebook and now we have a neverending stream of images about how great our lives are (and private groups bitching about our families.)

I prefer not.

Most American Men

Have a problem.

They aren’t attracted to the women they can get.  They are contemptuous that all their effort gets them inferior people, that it’s hard.

They lash out like goons.

Lather, rinse repeat.



Ad Roll Problems

Ad Roll is a company I hope to be doing business with.

The problem is that they email me from  OK, fine filter.

But their customer service is from there, too.  So if I filter them, I have to look for their message.  Ugh.  Accept their (not well written) e-mail or I miss support messages.

When I used to work at the bank, I’d call people and always get my calls returned. Sometimes they’d be mad at me for “crying wolf.”  “This is Chris from your bank – would love a call at ####.”  They thought something was wrong/stolen/etc.

Think it through.  success@ or something different would be a better way to market.


The car  salesman will sell you any car and say it’s a good choice, honestly.

The married guy that hits on every girl and probes them all for possibilities.

The underling that backbites his boss but takes orders.

The guy that wants to write a book some day, but you know he never will.

This is what sleazy is.  Noncommitment. Dabbling. It’s not attractive.

At the essence of sleaze it’s about not being committed. It’s about going with the flow, where the wind will blow.  We feel people are sleazy when they’d do anything. We admire people that are committed to something.

You have to figure out what’s right/wrong for you and go in that direction.


Getting Crazy Out Of Your Life

I had an employee who had a recent meltdown.

Some sort of personal issues, I don’t really know, but there was ugliness, the type of which had followed him around. He lost his shit on a dime.

He was on trial, he was treated unfairly. He had a point, we had an ambiguous agreement. But he had to go. I had to get him out of my company, out of my hair and away from me. Had to.

He was becoming dangerous. He had personal issues and he needed money, and he was extorting me.

I had to get him out of my life and be done.

Sometimes it means paying, sometimes it means police, sometimes it means both. When someone is insatiably crazy, you have to extract them from your life for good.


Inside Out

I was trying hard to grow my company.  For years, we were delivering good work but it was an ugly process.

We’d cover it with hours, many of them.  Clients would yell because intermediate milestones were blown. We tried to win them over with good work, late. And late always sucks.

Right now – 2015 – we are in a position to grow like crazy. And it’s because we have taken the time to create a company from the inside first.

It sucked turning down jobs.  I’m a born closer and it sucked avoiding that.  But there were more important things to put in place:

Training. Systems. Delegation. A rhythm.

The internal stuff. Getting our plumbing built.  Creating a system that doesn’t have ‘legacy issues.’

Of course. We’re not ‘there yet.’  Our legacy issues still have an impact us, but we finally have more production capacity than sales capacity.  This means we can double service levels (and prices).

That’s never happened.

We’re in position to be stress free, beautiful, elegant.  I’m thrilled with what’s before us, and what is to come and what is possible now. We can be whatever we choose to be.

We are built and strong inside, for the first time. So hopefully we can do what we were supposed to do years ago.